Saturday, February 15, 2014

Shadows Introductions
Part Two
a Kether Muse
(copyright)


 The headdress is amazingly dazzling and magnificent. Beautifully beaded in intricate and colorful designs. It's age and origins unknown but images of ancient ritualistic ceremonies flood my minds eye. Tibet, Africa or Peru? But then again I also see a smiling young flapper dancing across the floor with total abandon donning the accessory in accordance with the Egyptomania of the times. Whimsical thoughts as I run my finger across its surface and note where repairs have been made over the years to salvage this object of obvious special intrigue. That last thought brings me back to my present surroundings and out of the mini-trance I was swept away in. Still caressing this treasure I look up from my chair and gaze out the window to the sunny morning. I see Shadow standing outside near a tree, motioning for me to follow him. I rise obediently, for when my love, my guru, beckons I respond. I am eager and have no pressing matters to distract me from my lessons. And it has been way too long since my last. I exit the house with quickened step because Shadow has already almost disappeared at the edge of the tree line and I do not wish to lose sight of him.

 My pace, still a bit quicker than my norm, takes me down one of the winding, and fortunately, familiar pathways through the forest. I sense where it is Shadow is leading as I catch glimpses of him ahead in the filtered dancing sunlight. The birds are singing their morning greetings to the light and I hear my name in their melodies. It makes me smile knowing they recognize me and add me to their song. Not too far off is a little open meadow which Shadow often makes the classroom of the day where he instructs and guides me. I am out of breath a bit and am glad when we draw near our destination because I know there is an old stump at the meadow's edge where I can sit and gather my body and my thoughts in preparation for whatever Shadow has in store for me. Anxious to sit I see my appointed seat and approach. But before I can sit, there is an object there I must remove.

 “How very odd and unusual” I think to myself in an astonished tone while I plop down hard on my seat as I am a bit exhausted from our hike. I smile at my surprise, because I should be accustom to things being odd and unusual when it comes to Shadows teachings. As I settle myself I begin to examine my prize.. It is a conductors baton. It is about 16 inches long, but shaped in a taper more like a extended chopstick than a baton, but in my mind I am told it is a baton by an unrecognizable voice. Beautiful black ebony wood or so it appears and decorated with flowing designs of inlaid mother of pearl. Such a lovely object, but what is its purpose for today? I look up, scanning the meadow for Shadow. I do not see him. But there in the middle of the arena is a surreal scene that gives me a momentary start, causing my heart to skip a beat.

 Seated in a half moon array is a stringed quintet, dressed in fine clothing fit for any noteworthy performance stage. It is difficult to ascertain the sex of the member of the group as their clothing seems to fade in and out, male to female from one member to the next. Their hair styles and faces to are ever changing in a sort of seamless flowing motion. I am confused as to if this is significant or a sign that it matters little to the lesson. Each has his/her music stand with sheets of music in front of them. In front of that is a solitary stand and I m prompted by Shadow in his voiceless manner to take my baton and and my appointed post.

 Unsure of my ability to take on the unfamiliar role I stand before my musical podium, raise my baton and begin, assuming the musicians have practiced the music and my plan being to adjust my awkwardness and inexperience accordingly. Abruptly the players begin. Expecting to be lavished with some moving composition of indescribable sweetness, I was applaud at what issued forth. It was the most discordant and near painful echoing sound I had ever experience! I continued in my play actor conductor mode for a few minutes, hoping and praying that this agonizing overture may magically find some semblance of harmony. Quickly I recognize that this is not going to happened and I wave my arms frantically in the air motioning for the players to cease. They stop as abruptly as they began.

 Looking down at the sheet music in front of me I found myself staring in wonder at a totally blank and unmarked page,, I pick it up and thumb through the remaining pages to find the same empty canvas.  Stepping over to the stands and music of the musicians I begin the same process with their music, each in turn.. Their pages reveal music, unlike my own pages, but I note that each has a different piece than the others. I look to them and they sit motionless but attentive and do not reveal any indication as to what they are thinking, seemingly unaffected by what has just transpired. I turn my gaze outward, scanning for Shadow turning 360 to no avail. Shadow appears to be gone. Confused I choose to return to my faithful stump, baton and “music” in hand. The players sit patiently as before, the only movement is the continuous smooth flowing of their dress and appearance as before.

I struggle to absorb what I have just experienced and sit up straight and close my eyes allowing my questions to echo about, awaiting an answer of some sort that rings true to explain to me the purpose of  the morning events. Holding tight to my new found touchstone, baton and “music” my mind reaches out to my love, my guru for just a little guidance. I immediately I sense a sigh from Shadow in his characteristic telepathic manner. He is encouraging me to not be so impatient and to sit a bit longer with it all. I feel a moment of being perturbed at the reply and suddenly every note of the previous discordant “concert” comes back into my awareness further adding to my distress. It seems impossible to even convey the depth of the soulful agony of hearing it a second time.

 The sounds fade. Quietly I sit and sit for a seemingly endless time awaiting revelation. Like the rising moon, quietly and silently the task and purpose is revealed. I open my eyes to the twilight of the setting sun.  With my new feeling of relief and purpose I return to the Meadow Quintet who remain patiently sitting and awaiting my direction. I assure them that I shall return with a score that can be played by all. I am unskilled at this task, but I know it is necessary and good. The why still eludes me but in time my lessons teach me about who I am and I remain thankful in my unsureness. Beyond this I have little to say. The players look to me with eyes that are not there and let me know they understand and will continue to wait. I turn to find the path back through the woods as I feel/see Shadow, my love, my guru smiling...

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Shadow's Introductions
Part One
(copyright)


Rain.

The spring sits awaiting weeks away. So why does our Mother tease us in such a manner? The white bird in my dreams last night also seemed to be toying with me, flickering about and alighting on my shoulders. I was straining to hear what it was saying but the message eluded me.

Rain, tobacco and coffee. Welcome guests to start a new day with. The incessant clamor in my head is beginning to dominate over the pitter-patter of the gentle rain, insisting I begin making plans for the day that awaits me, heretofore of little or no concern. Slightly startled I see that familiar movement at the edges of my peripheral vision. He often comes to me this way, especially after times of long absence. My love, my teacher, my friend.

I assume he has been busy with his other students, as I am not arrogant enough to believe I'm his only one. I do wish at times his visits were not so brief, but being an excellent teacher his lessons are always conveyed with focused and efficient intent. Aloud I speak, “Ah, Shadow, welcome.” I know he heard a bit of dismay on my voice, as I am a little miffed at having been left to my own devices for so long without his guiding hand. I can almost see him smiling as he ducks around the tree out of sight for now. And isn't that a thought! Surprising because in all these many years I have never really seen Shadows face..

Excitement and anticipation are sprinkled with a garnish of apprehension. Apprehension because Shadows visits are sometimes painful, as my lessons reveal my fear to me, like the rising sun that I cannot escape from or make retreat to the other side of the horizon. I stand, taking a deep breath of resolve, ready for what may come.. I salute our Mother. I reach out from the porch and touch the gentle rain..

Ah, the rain.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

THOUGHTS ON BEING GREEN

Author Unknown

Checking out at the store, the young cashier suggested to the older woman, that she should bring her own grocery bags because plastic bags weren’t good for the environment.

The woman apologized and explained, “We didn’t have this green thing back in my earlier days.”

The young clerk responded, “That’s our problem today. Your generation did not care enough to save our environment for future generations.”

She was right — our generation didn’t have the green thing in its day.

Back then, we returned milk bottles, soda bottles and beer bottles to the store. The store sent them back to the plant to be washed and sterilized and refilled, so it could use the same bottles over and over. So they really were recycled.

But we didn’t have the green thing back in our day.

Grocery stores bagged our groceries in brown paper bags, that we reused for numerous things, most memorable besides household garbage bags, was the use of brown paper bags as book covers for our schoolbooks. This was to ensure that public property, (the books provided for our use by the school) was not defaced by our scribblings. Then we were able to personalize our books on the brown paper bags.

But too bad we didn’t do the green thing back then.

We walked up stairs, because we didn’t have an escalator in every store and office building. We walked to the grocery store and didn’t climb into a 300-horsepower machine every time we had to go two blocks.

But she was right. We didn’t have the green thing in our day.

Back then, we washed the baby’s diapers because we didn’t have the throwaway kind. We dried clothes on a line, not in an energy-gobbling machine burning up 220 volts — wind and solar power really did dry our clothes back in our early days. Kids got hand-me-down clothes from their brothers or sisters, not always brand-new clothing.

But that young lady is right; we didn’t have the green thing back in our day.

Back then, we had one TV, or radio, in the house — not a TV in every room. And the TV had a small screen the size of a handkerchief (remember them?), not a screen the size of the state of Montana. In the kitchen, we blended and stirred by hand because we didn’t have electric machines to do everything for us. When we packaged a fragile item to send in the mail, we used wadded up old newspapers to cushion it, not Styrofoam or plastic bubble wrap. Back then, we didn’t fire up an engine and burn gasoline just to cut the lawn. We used a push mower that ran on human power. We exercised by working so we didn’t need to go to a health club to run on treadmills that operate on electricity.

But she’s right; we didn’t have the green thing back then.

We drank from a fountain when we were thirsty instead of using a cup or a plastic bottle every time we had a drink of water. We refilled writing pens with ink instead of buying a new pen, and we replaced the razor blades in a razor instead of throwing away the whole razor just because the blade got dull.

But we didn’t have the green thing back then.

Back then, people took the streetcar or a bus and kids rode their bikes to school or walked instead of turning their moms into a 24-hour taxi service. We had one electrical outlet in a room, not an entire bank of sockets to power a dozen appliances. And we didn’t need a computerized gadget to receive a signal beamed from satellites 23,000 miles out in space in order to find the nearest burger joint.

But isn’t it sad the current generation laments how wasteful we old folks were just because we didn’t have the green thing back then?